::my sweet valentine::

jt walked mi back hme aft dinner/supper wif everybody admist some dee siao-ing which is like, inevitable lar. 10 bowls of bar chor mee, 2x$6 of orh lua, $15 worth of satay, 8 chicky wings and many many cups of sugar cane juice. was so full and bloated that i couldn't finish 3/4 of my bar chor mee lar, so wasted can? mixed emotions while dining wif them. though we're frm the same class, but i'm in a diff clique frm them lar; wouldn't have thought of joining them to makan on my own. when he invited mi to join them, it was wif hesitation that i agreed. wasn't as chatty as usual prolly cuz of the many familiar-yet-unfamiliar faces there. i cn safely say that i'd not spoken more than a string of sentences to either of them prior to today; didn't even speak a single word to some of them lar.
i think it's so cute lar. the guys in the clique started to have crushes at almost the same time. the guys fell for/rumoured to have fallen for the girls in my class at practically the same time.

and omfg, heard through the grapevine that jt actually has the hots for mi!~ can't believe it - here's hoping that wat i'd just heard wasn't some prank. and he was so sweet lar, cuz mi, ade and mich zhao-ed the SSEL class ytd during break as we were too du lan wif porcupine's grp and how they kept shooting us and the lecturer distributed some notes while we weren't in class. he actually helped mi collected the notes and scribbled some extra comments the lecturer made lar; helped my grpmates collected their notes too. and during msn convo, he accidentally let slip that "why u leave mi alone". i teh siao and asked, "huh, wat toking u?". to which he replied, "typed wrong. ask why u leave the class halfway". he totally gave the game away cn? lolx lar.

wentfor haircut ytd. girl in class commented that i look ah lian-ish, another one said very style. mixed reactions lar. dun care so much. it's gonna be purple hair tmr!

edit--
eew! got a slime in my class like mi. gross lar. it's like, we've to do this presentation thingy at the front of the class and when it's my grp's turn, we heard giggling and bits-and-pieces of conversations while we were up at the front. being the ice princess and appearing ever so nonchalent, i couldn't give a flying fark as to what those imbeciles were talking abt till i heard snatches of my name. that was when my "antenna become very long" and the gist of the whole thing - "porcupine"; this totally argh guy with a super big mouth told everyone sitting near him that this particular guy is interested in mi lar. that's why everyone was so high when it was my grp's turn for he presentation. wat the ... weird that i dun hold anything against the guy who likes mi but i'm filled wif hatred towards procupine. he tio gan by mich during break too, though nt directly lar.
anyway, it pays to be early for lessons cuz every now and then, u'll get to see exciting, free shows. i cite one example frm today. this guy just placed a bouqet of flowers in front of this girl. yar. so us bystanders started whistling and clapping and whatnots lar. so entertaining hor?

adeline + angelline = develline, tikoline, pervertline, ka chng-line, backsideline, smellyline, nehnehline and so much more.


phantom tmr and haircut + shopping wif mich on thurs!
can't wait.
jenn dearest, time will heal all wounds. i've got a little smthg for u! *grins*

was one step away frm tearing my hair out frm frustration just now, no thanks to econs.
pls pronnounce it as air-ke-no-mics, can't stand ppl who read it as e-con-no-mics.
wat shift right shift left, move up move down. supply curve, demand curve. supply increase demand increase or decrease or dunno wat shit lar. i wanna die cn?

my face is stinging now!
double-ouch. thanks to the AHA-laden peeling stuff which was applied to my face ytd.
oh well, ai swee mai mia, i've always been liddat wat.
shoo, i dun need you. zits, pus-filled pimples, blemishes, imperfections, go away pls.
get outta my life.

my 3yr-old cousin has caught on the "trend" of pinching my cheeks. wat the ... one more person added to my list of "people to avoid for personal safety". and X's been tormenting mi wif "fishball, fishball" lately. said that my cheeks machiam fishball liddat and asked if my dimples izzit i use my fingers to poke one. like, duh, of cuz not lar. told him to try poking it everyday and i'll ask him 1yr ltr if he starts to possess dimples.

3rd wk of sch tmr. hope i dun screwed up my studies once again. tmr's gonna be mgmt studies, a/c on tues and marketing on wed. am so looking forward towards wed cuz the marketing module's loadsa fun and also am going to esplande for Phantom wif jenn dearest then. original plan was to camp over at her hse aft Phantom but i backed out cuz of the dozens of projects waiting for mi to complete and also cuz i'm not so wei da to pei her wake up at 7am the next morning for sch when my lesson only starts at 2pm lar.
truckloads of ppl added mi in msn and 9-out-of-10, i bet cute guy added mi too, though i've got absolutely no idea how he'd gotten my msn and friendster. mass deleted abt 50ppl in my msn list alrdy, so, if u find that i haven been appearing in ur msn list for ages, u shld noe wat i'd done ah?

happy bday to kiwi!
dude, u're an old man now. cn prep urself for senior citizenship alrdy.

jenn dearest drew mi a heart!
muacks! and i'm the only one who's so privilaged to have it lar.

cute guy in sch added mi in friendster and i almost pressed the reject button. cuz i've the tendency to reject ppl who anyhow add mi. dunno where he got my friendster. and i tot he didn't even noe of my presence lar. oh well.

face treatment today, did 3rounds. couldn't stand the sight of my face, so revolting. stress + hormones (thanks to red tide). went for eyebrow trimming too. satisfied my crave for pretzel. did NOT shopped though i went to 2 diff shopping ctrs for the beauty stuff.

for once, i'm making a real effort to revise sch stuff at hme when there's no examinations in sight. i feel so stupid. can't understand econs, can't balance a/c, can't seem to memorise the mgmt and marketing stuff. life's the shit. trying my darnest nt to screw up my life once again; given this 2nd chance to redeem myself.
most prolly new hair in the next 2wks.
my face is kanasai right now. 2 blemishes and 2 zits. i feel so UGLY lar. must be those hormones wrecking havoc again. stress larrr. note to self: go wash those make-up brushes.

angelline said that she like my nose.
wth lar. i think my nose is too flat lor.

wahaha.
got new target liao, sort of lar.
pity he doesn't own a car; saw him at the bus stop aft sch.

jenn dearest was like, "maybe his car broke down or smthg lar ..."

cn i pls have a rich (ok lar, dun need rich, just yang de qi wo ke yi liao) bf wif a nice car, nice family, dimpled smiles, NOT horizontally-challeneged and pls, at least 1yr older than mi hor.

heng i decided to be sloppy and wear these instead of my super-high wedges or my trusty birks cuz it was pouring donkeys and mokeys when i was least expecting it and even wif one of my biggest brolly, my denim was wet too.


malicious. vicious.
that's all i cn say when girls decided to gang up and outcast someone. it's a proven fact (by urs truely) that females bond by gossiping and it's apparent even at tertiary level. so it's like, 70% of the girls in my class are ostracising this burberry-carrying-princess who's conviently also a guy magnet. oh well, better her than mi right? aft all, i dun wish to be at the recieving end of the critisms and hypocricy.

finally met up wif shuting dearest aft like, sooo long lar.
dinner, fagged and nonsensical ramblings.
she's like, super thin now cn? buay tahan her.
eating every hr or so and is always hungry but losing wt faster than anything.
weird metabolism rate of hers lar.

saw dua cui and waved at him.
she asked who izzit to which i replied, "huh. dua cui lar."
ji tao lolx-ing all the way lor. she expected mi to mention crabbie's name but instead, got "big mouth" as the ans.

ade and mich were dee siao-ing mi and saying that my friends are all "pilots" as they always put mi on aeroplane. ji tao very paiseh lor, so buay steady one.


yet another randomly random post again.
hope u poly ppl [except the tp ones] had a, ahem, fun first day in sch and many more to come!

and that's se's masterpiece frm the chicky rice leftovers.

and pc's continuing poo's legacy, wearing his bro's clothes the moment poo left for NS. i do hope that he wun continue wif the super cold jokes though.

i went to buy bks aft Jazz class ytd!

i'm a certified nerd now yea?
the classics series bks damn cheap cn? only $4+ each lar.
bought "to kill a mockingbird" and "secret garden" the other day; revisiting my childhood days wif Pets textbk uh.
reading on mrt rides great too, as i have to kill 1h15mins for travelling time.

saw jun xiang at tpy. he's wif another girl this time, think his flings are neverending.


as my skin's seriously dehydrated, frm air-con, insufficiant H2O intake etc, i bought this Avene spray thingy to replenish the moisture in my skin. realised that my hydrating serum and moisturizer's not enough to combat the lack of water in my skin, dun wanna have premature wrinkles. hope this thing works, it's supposedly spring water frm some water source in France and docs frm national skin ctr recommend it to those army boys who just ORD, also used to treat ppl wif eczema and all those lar. was contemplating between this and clinique's but got this in the end cuz it's tons cheaper. oh well, spent money again. and i just subscribed to Cleo for a yr.

2nd wk of sch tmr. wish mi luck.

FOR THE MEN WHO HAVE US ;
THE LOSERS WHO HAD US ;
AND THE LUCKY BASTARDS WHO WILL MEET US!

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to sx: i really really really no appetite to eat lar. must be due to those irregular hrs i ate during the hols.

yea anyway, had breakfast-cum-lunch wif dar at 11am, it's 18 47 now and i'm not the slightest hungry. chris kor sorta reprimanded mi when he wasn't free to makan wif mi as he had to rush for lion dance and i didn't wanna eat by myself. "zhang zhe mo da le hai bu hui zi ji qu chi meh?" he commented that i'm sibei jialat and super dependent on him, which is so NOT true lar.

pondered ovr many stuff these few days late at night and i concluded that i'm seriously not ready to haf a bf. i'm having super jialat time mgmt probs alrdy, wif just a few things on my hands. nowadays, i just haf to juggle wif dance, sch, my babes and tuition. these few things nia and it tks up lotsa time for mi lor. totally NO time for a r/s lor.

bank statement arrived ytd. withdrew $1 140.21 last mth and income was only $867.38 lor. didn't work that many days, and that explained the super pathetic sum of money deposited into my account. think i only worked total less than 10days? "credit side $400" that's what HE always use to shoot mi back whenever i dee siao HIM.
fingers very itchy now. have this urge to go shopping! haven shopped for a wk+ alrdy, quite an accomplishment for mi.

rainy day - perfect for slping in but i just reached hme and am too lazy to go cleanse my face and bathe. it's nearing dinnertime and i'm still not hungry lar. i hope my body doesn't go into starvation mode though i've not been eating much these 2 days. not that i dun wanna eat lar, but is no appetite lor. ytd the only "real meal" i ate was 3 chee kuehs for breakfast lar. didn't had time for lunch as i'd to rush to sch aft Jazz class. break was a stale custard puff provided by the sch for the daily tea break and dinner was a glass of rose syrup drink at tutee's hse followed by teh peng at 58 market. wasn't really hungry at 9+ when i reached hme. crapped arnd wif jenn dearest and CK. ck's forever so dee siao one lor. and HE called late at night when i was least expecting it. conferenced wif HIM and jenn dearest and i think i was silent 1/3 of the time lor cuz they were talking abt sch stuff. today, ate 2 siew mais for breakfast, 1/2 of a portion of shou gong mian for lunch and dinner's gonna be a few nibbles of cod fish. i really really hope that my body doesn't go into starvation mode as that will decrease my alrdy low metabolsm rate even more. and not to mention, i've low blood pressure so i might get dizzy. who noes, i might faint on the way to sch tmr if this continues.
poo's going to tekong tmr. he's gonna kiss his very voluminzed hair gd-bye and say hello to gross camp food. for 3wks, we've to do w/out his lame jokes and i do hope he doesn't come back a changed man though it's inevitable, given the tough training he has to undergo.

why must YOU raise my hopes up when i thought that i should move on?
lift mi up and watch mi fall, that's wat u wanna do, don't u?

painted my nails bloody red, known as lady vengeance now.

it's time to start being hyprocritical and shallow again,
just when i've almost decided to not paste a false facade on my face.
for the sake of the upcoming projects, i shall try to be friendly to the ppl in my class.
i dun mind being friend-less, aft all, it's only gonna be six mths of lessons, 4hrs daily lessons five days a wk but i HAVE to be more sociable and put my prejudice against ppl who're different frm mi aside, for the sake of projects.
and i've alrdy established my status as a Ice Princess, so there.

ppl msg-ing and asking mi "how's sch"
to this i mass replied them, "sucks lar. my class got all the social outcasts. got china chickens, fatties, ah lian wannabe, weird freakos."
and shuting had a very, shall i say interesting, reply, "izzit so bad? so have u decided who u wanna group up wif? the freaks. the china girls. the wannabes ... or the fatties? lol." and she also said that i'm "damn cek ark" cuz i judge ppl base on first impression.
told daddy that my class got alot of guai guai de ren, as in weird, when he asked how my day was. he said that to mi they might be weird but to them, maybe i'm the weird one. hmm ... wondering wat they say abt mi behind my back.

it's time to start being shallow and hyprocritical again
if not for the projects, i'd not mind being friend-less.
aft all, it's only gonna be six mths of 4hrs lessons daily wat.
i cn live wif being a loner for half a yr lor.

but unfortunately, i've to start being fake, plaster a fake smile on my face
trying to be friendly, lest i'm said to be dao again.
oh well, i've alrdy established myself as an Ice Princess anyway.

totally fab slpover wif sx and se! *grins*
we shld do this more often uh, it's been a long time since u last came over hor, sx?

bar chor mee, chicky wings, orh lua, 80c superb teh peng ...
yummy!

pampering our faces wif my skincare products and facial suana
think i cn run my own facial salon, except i'll do w/out the extraction part lar.

se "tutoring" mei mei ovr maths prob,
mei mei got kinda attached to se and sx. wanted to spend the night wif us but we were kinda reluctant to let her join in. actually she's quite ke lian lar, wanted to be part of the "big girls" but we weren't very warm towards the idea. so anyway, i was slping on my own bed while mei mei, sx and se were sharing two mattreses. the plan was that everybody pretend to slp till mei mei finally dozes off and i can carry her 30kg body frame back to her own bed and we cn resume our bitching session thereafter but she took ages to fall asleep till we were very pek cek. den mi and se were very lame, we kept waving to each other in the dark, and i threw my little cushion at her and so, we'd a mini pillow fight! se and sx ganged up and bullied poor little mi! sobz. anyway, we were throwing the cushion thingy arnd like nobody's business lar. but then, the cushion dropped on mei mei twice and she threw the pillow back at mi! wah lao, as if i'm the one who threw the pillow at her lor. she told mama that "wo shi ta men de target!" haa. so funny cn? so anyway, we very buay tahan wif her lar, cuz she couldn't slp. so i was the first one to get out of the rm. followed by se, on the pretext that she lao sai, sx who crept out of the rm. se went back again to stuff a bolster under the blanket to make it seem like there's someone slping underneath lar. so we sat on my sis' big bed and bitch lar, quite mellow bitching, if i'd to say so.
at 12+, i carried that 30kg girl back to her bed. my back was cracking lar. so we resumed our bitching session back in my rm, crapped loads lar.

emotions going through a rollercoaster now. dunno if i shld be eagerly anticipating or dreading sch. hope i'll get nice classmates; and some cute guys next door too - dun wanna let the yandaos distract mi frm my lectures rite?
facial masque, collagen eye mask, new nail colour, new stationary and pretty notebks - think i shld be ready for sch!`

unrequited love - not so much of unrequited in my case lar.


actually hor, HE's not a bad choice for a potential bf lar. in fact, HE's wat i'm looking for, except for the age and ht factor lar. aiya, he's taller than mi lar, just not as tall as i'd like him to be and age is not supposed to be a huge factor too, just look at cherry and his present gf lorrr. mai hiam buay pai right? i really shouldn't ask for so much, scarly have so much expectations then i'll be left on the shelf next time. as they say, qi wang yue gao, shi wang yue da. but i feel that i shouldn't compromise on my "lifelong happiness" leh, afterall, it's MY LIFE leh.

nvm. i shall go bf scouting when sch starts next mon. hopefully i'll be able to snag and have a longlasting r/s wif a rich and cute bf who stays in the east, has his own car to chauffer mi arnd, dote and pamper mi and treat mi like his little princess.





**wait for my gd news!

Oliver Twist was fab! think total attendance was abt 98% full.
"pls sir, can i have more?"

i tot the Q&A segment at the end was great too. audience gets to interact wif the actors and get to know more abt them. how often do u get to talk to the artistes at such close proximity?

dinner at cafe cartel thereafter. my love - soft shell crab again.


except for an uber short phone call while HE was going for bball, we have not been in contact since 4pm. oh well, i shouldn't worry so much as HE only got hme at 4am last night and anyway, why shld i even care? HE's not even my bf lar, for crying out loud. i'm super lazy to initiate any form of contact wif anyone lar; am only replying and picking up calls frm ppl who tk the initiative to contact mi first.


am sooo looking forward to tmr whereby sx and se's gonna stayover. bitch, that's wat we'll do. i foresee that it'll be a near to slpless nite and we'll be bitching abt everything, anything. been ages since sx last came over to stay. anticipating tmr!

i'm living such a boring and mundane life nowadays and it's almost surreal as it is totally unlike mi lar. my time are now circled arnd dance, slp, online-ing, sms-ing and all those itsy-bitsy stuff lar. days pass by in a blur; can't differentiate one day frm another. i only haphazardly remembered seeing the super tall wei lik, lunch wif dar, CL wif jenn, SIM wif mama to purchase textbks, 3days freshmen orientation camp for HIM, tuition and HE came to find mi, dinner wif HIM aft CL, HE had throat infection and had to tk a cocktail of 4 types of medicine, spent more than 3/4 of my time outside, painting and repainting my nails, running low on cash and other nonsense.

decided to reward myself as i've been rather frugal on my makan-ing expenses. had lunch-cum-dinner at ajisen. coulden't finish 40% of the ra-men lar. waste money AGAIN. ordered an extra ala carte of soft-shell crab; my fave.



bought this thingy.
it's supposed to lengthen and volumnize my lashes and results cn be seen in a mth if i apply it diligently everynight. read through many postings in forums whereby ppl raved ovr this product so here i am, crossing my fingers that my botak lashes will grow.




bought tix to Oliver Twist. bringing mei mei to watch it tmr.as i've said, must pei yang yi shu xi bao frm young wat. be my mei mei very shuang hor, every now and then get to watch play/drama/movie FOC.




tadpoles in rainwater!
pity Poo wasn't there to "catch" some tadpoles back hme. if i remembered correctly, he brought some back hme the other time and his 2 mini crabs ate them up. but anyway, where do the tadpoles come frm uh? i mean, no frogs there to lay the eggs there or smthg wat. aye, Poo's gonna bid adios to his damn volumnizing hair. bet he's dreading 13 april when he have to be enlisted.


i'm so not looking forward to next mon. i wanna slp my life awayyy, dun wanna go back to sch. though i only have to attend 4h of lesson per day, but still, very taxing to travel to clementi everyday ALONE lehhh.

am craving for Ikea's cheapo-but-fab $1.20 ice cream.

pulled a nerve/muscle/whatever ytd during dance class.
farking pain can?
and i had to walk frm parkmall to winsland house which is near somerset to tk my bus.
am limping arnd, lying down, hobble here hobble there like an invalid.
serves mi right for being so ambitious; dancing everyday.

can feel that HE's kinda xin tong when he got to know that i injured myself. msg-ing/calling mi every half hr or so to ask abt mi.
thanks to all my friends who showed care and concern during this period of time.


happy april's fool!
haven zhen anyone yet leh.